Unreleased Songs

The Honorary Title Unreleased Songs Lyrics
1.Thin Layer

Lyricist:Jarrod Gorbel

I threw a thin layer of rubber
And a thick rusted armor
Of drunken lust

I think when our clothes were on
We had a different image of what
This was supposed to be

Here's what I intended
Here is the truth
So here's what I intended
Here is the truth

The soundtrack to our meeting
Fills the awkward spaces
Between our strained breathing

And the only thing between
Between the two of us
Is your blood and our sweat

So here's what I intended
Here is the truth
And here's what I intended
Here is the truth

Here is the truth
Here is the truth
Here is

I'll disguise this whining
With melody
Hope that it leaves
Leaves you intrigued

I hope you feel
You feel what I did
Time that this was
This was the

The silence is pleasing
Between our breathing
Now it's over with
This is not what I intended


2.Radiate

Lyricist:Jarrod Gorbel, Aaron Kamstra

Let's leave this urban territory
Won't settle less, our children could be
So much better off, sacrifice then loss
Just two hundred miles out east

Smothering the sun's evening glare
Dispersing the colors as I stare
The rays that will spread and spray from out
Oh in between my hands, oh in between

Radiate, radiate, radiate
Not only for
Radiate, radiate, radiate
Not only for you, not only for you

If I could be as strong as
My father was with us then
There's no reason to doubt, resentment is out
Absolutely out of the question

Smothering the sun's evening glare
Dispersing the colors as I stare
The rays that will spread and spray from out
Oh in between my hands, oh in between

Radiate, radiate, radiate
Not only for
Radiate, radiate, radiate
Not only

This life we had chosen
It's eating you up from the inside
I'm not asking, I am begging
Why don't you realize?

Say it in your own way
I know you wish we had stayed
Say it in your own way
I know you wish we had stayed

Radiate, radiate, radiate
Not only for
Radiate, radiate, radiate
Not only for you


3.Along The Way

Lyricist:Adam Boyd, Jarrod Gorbel, Aaron Kamstra, Jonathan Wiley

Resurrect the evening, brought it back as if filled in
Filled in something missing, something never there to begin
And you were so distraught, had never been in love
Guess you learned your lesson, don't starve a poor boy

You could not help yourself from crying the entire night
It's painful when you realize your lives are intertwined
It's helped me somewhat

Ba bah dah, bah bah dah
Bah bah dah, dah dada dah
Ba bah dah, bah bah dah
Bah bah dah, dah dada dah

Well, I'll be yours forever, just tell me when to start
There are just a few places that I'll need to stop
Well, some along the way
Some in the midst of, in the midst of our eternal love

You could not help yourself from crying the entire night
It's painful when you realize your lives are intertwined
It's helped me somewhat
It's helped me somewhat

Ba bah dah, bah bah dah
Bah bah dah, dah dada dah
Ba bah dah, bah bah dah
Bah bah dah, dah dada dah

Bah dada dah dah
Bah dada dah dah
Bah dada dah dah
Bah dada dah dah

Why lie? The truth's easy to find in time
Forgive me of this crime, it's alright
I swear I'll never, swear I'll never
Swear I'll never do this again

Why lie? The truth's easy to find in time
Forgive me of this crime, it's good night
I don't even, I don't even
I don't even know her name


4.Apologize

Lyricist:Jarrod Gorbel, Aaron Kamstra

Yesterday's dinner's haunting me today
Blades in my stomach spinning
Hiding by the stress of your love
I won't return your calls until he lets out
Oh, just one more season, you will be good

Tonight, oh, don't even, don't even try

'Cause when I'm concentrating on making statements
I will fool you into thinking we're fine
Yeah, fool you, fool you, fool you into thinking we're fine
Until you start to feel something outside
Yeah, well you alone can visualize

Not worth the misery, a sordid history
Years of revelry, we converse endlessly
Those powdered lips that say you cry
You start to feel something outside

Tonight, oh, don't even, don't even try

For an earnest heartfelt evening
From holding this hallucination
Couldn't help but notice your eyes are losing focus
Such magnetism, now you're opposed

But if you're not begging for it then it's not yours
Once dependent, now no signs of withdrawal

Not worth the misery, a sordid history
Years of revelry, we converse endlessly
Those powdered lips that say you cry
Well, you start to feel something outside

Tonight, oh, don't even, don't even, don't

Please talk softly now, no need to scream
The raise in decibels seems obscene
Please talk softly now, no need to scream
The raise in decibels seems obscene

Tonight, well tonight, you've sold everything
You've been told, I apologize


5.City's Summer

Lyricist:Jarrod Gorbel

Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na

You crawling through the dense green carpeting
Untamed and seventies, tiny fingers couldn't pry
Their way through that thick and knotted reverie

Relapse, fall backwards and slide
Are you suggesting that
I repress, repress and disguise?

Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na

The surge of static electricity
Brought on by the fear of being seen
Creeping up in silence on the battle scene
Slow and slithering

We stand still on 4th of July
Numb to explosions that
Scream and light, light up the sky

Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na

There's a solution, it's been tested
My desire will never persevere
When swimming in serotonin
The city summer smells like perfume

So rub your wrists together
Take a swing and you'll feel better
Once you close your eyes
Pretend to sleep for hours and hours spot on

Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na

Na na na na na na na na na
(Through the kitchen then up the column of my spine)
Na na na na na na na
(All of this hatred and echoing despise)

Na na na na na na na na na
(Through the kitchen then up the column of my spine)
Na na na na na na na
(All of this hatred and echoing despise)

Na na na na na na na na na
(Just hold on, hold on)
Na na na na na na na
(Just hold on, hold on)


6.Only One Week

Lyricist:Jarrod Gorbel

Have your lips graced another's yet or am I the only one?
Every time I try to speak to you, those are the thoughts that
run
Say something else girl, I don't wanna have to leave
Our communication is hardly what it used to be

When can I claim you to be
My own, so selfishly?
When can I claim you to be
My own, my only?

Want nothing more than our futures to collide
Can't tell this is gonna be one of many disappointing nights
Traces of you are so minimal
A black and white by photo booth with us

When can I claim you to be
My own, so selfishly?
When can I claim you to be
My own, my only?

And I have only one week to make you mine
And I may never see you again
It's not only for me, it's not only for me
There's a little bit, little bit here for you
But I'm willing to wait, I'm willing

Day time is no longer the hours spent
And the night is far worse
'Cause I know you're alone with her
And thoughts of, of us have been deserted

It will never be the same
I'll never be the same again
I will never be the same again

I have only one week to make you mine
And I may never see you again
Time is few and far between
There is someone else who needs
There is someone else who needs your attention
But I'm willing to wait, I am willing to wait
I'm willing to wait, I'm willing to wait


7.Wait Until I'm Gone

Lyricist:Jarrod Gorbel

I'm lacking any discipline, pulling strings
Typing up your skin of porcelain stopped listening
No longer need, oh the sunlight
That night we had, it will suffice

Infatuation is the perfect camouflage
A warm and temporary place to go

I'm lacking any confidence, second guessing
Separate for perspective, is there nothing left?
And how I see for weeks and weeks
Judged hastily, no patience

I've seen you under every, every sort of light
From ideal perfection to the darker side

You always were
You always were
So good to me

I need a stimulant
Something to help reinvent
I need a stimulant
Something to help reinvent
Well I have only one request

Wait until I'm gone
Wait until I'm gone
Wait until I'm gone
Wait until I'm gone

Is there nothing left?
Is there nothing left?
Is there nothing at all?

Is there nothing left?
Is there nothing left?
Is there nothing at all?

I need a stimulant
Something to help a reinvent
Well I need, I need, I need
Well I need, I need, I need
Well I have only one request

You always were
You always were
So good to me


8.Even If

Lyricist:Jarrod Gorbel

Doesn't seem that selfish, no, not in the least
What's so self righteous about this curiosity?
This want for a meager exchange
So much time has passed but still it remains
This need for you is a recurring theme in my life

Don't you think I'm lonely?
Eager to complete the story
Confused and still haunted
With why you'd start over
Oh and ignore me

It takes time to realize the other side of you
That's controlled and blinding on sight of our lives
Well even if you left me and my brother
Even if you left us and our mother

I want nothing more than to catch your eye
Would you be impressed with how far I've climbed
Without your assistance with you nowhere in sight?

Don't you think I'm lonely?
Eager to complete the story
Confused and still haunted
With why you'd start over
Oh and ignore us

It takes time to realize the other side of you
That's controlled and blinding on sight of our lives
Even if you left me and my brother
Even if you left us and our mother

She's had her share more than we'll know
My brother won't, he just won't let go

They say you're sick and there's a name and a phrase
To apply and help explain
Still having trouble trying to separate
How you started a new family?

Even after you left me and my brother
Even after you left us and our mother


9.Stay Away

Lyricist:Jarrod Gorbel, The Honorary Title

Are you not the slightest bit confused?
Just the truth
The speed at which we move blends so well
It's too soon

Separate yourself from what compels you to relinquish us
Push your way on to me entirely
Stay away from me, stay away from me now
Unless you gonna see, unless you gonna see me out

No, I can't dance unless it's slow or sad
To a song that's far less obvious
You're using me, do it slowly
Make it last until I have to go

Trust me when I say just a few more weeks
Don't move
Resist temptation or do as you see fit?
Just choose

Separate yourself from what compels you to relinquish us
Push your way on to me entirely
Stay away from me and stay away from me now
Unless you gonna see, unless you gonna see me out

No, I can't dance unless it's slow or sad
To a song that's far less obvious
You're using me, do it slowly
Make it last until I have to go

No, I can't dance unless it's slow or sad
To a song that's far less obvious
You're using me, do it slowly
Make it last until I have to go

No, I can't dance unless it's slow or sad
To a song that's far less obvious
If you're using me do it slowly
Make it last until I have to go

Stay away from, stay away from
Stay away from me
Stay away from, stay away from
Stay away from me
Stay away from, stay away from me


10.Anything Else But the Truth

Lyricist:Jarrod Gorbel

I'm pulled from seclusion, dragged out of our room
This construction is perfectly obstructing
Paired up and placed back on to our path
Compressed in this space that frames this awkward act
The chance to make it last, has come and gone

Glass shatters with an unsteady grip
No chance to catch the blood as it comes rushing in
Too quickly pumping out from the inside
Dripping into patterns strewn across my thigh

Each drop spreads and spells a passage
Soon I'll reclaim this dull history
The seamstress weaves shut the stitches
But re-opens the same memory

Two years have passed and nothings changed, that's alright
Still you just wait for that embrace, it's alright
There is only one thing that has yet to be said, I am holding
back
There is only one thing that has yet to be said
And it's alright but it's alright

Doesn't matter there's no reason to persist
While avoiding all but that kiss
Scraping my cheek with your passionless lips
From your side of things it's not quite over with

I don't think that you aren't anything else but the truth
Sorry, this time I've out done it
But I know that, I know that you'll lose

Two years have passed and nothings changed, that's alright
Still you just wait for that embrace, it's alright
There is only one thing that has yet to be said, I am holding
back
There is only one thing that has yet to be said, I am holding
back

I don't think that she noticed that there was anything wrong at
all
I don't think that she noticed that there was anything wrong at
all
Finally, I'm free to leave
I don't ever really want to pull and push again unless you're
gonna fall

Two years have passed and nothing's changed, that's alright
Still you just wait for that embrace, it's alright
There is only one thing that has yet to be said, I am holding
back
There is only one thing that has yet to be said, I am holding
back

There is only one thing that is yet to be said
There is only one thing that is yet to be said
There is only one thing that is yet to be said

There is only one thing that has yet to be said, I am holding
back
There is only one thing that has yet to be said and it's alright
But it's alright, yeah, it's alright


11.Stuck At Sea

Lyricist:Adam Boyd, Jarrod Gorbel, Jonathan Wiley

Running in and out of breath
Staining skin and teeth too red
Incessant slamming and that tone
God forbid, I spend one night alone

Out to the parking lot
Stumbling towards my apartment
Pressed you close against the screen door
Close enough to feel underneath your clothes

You overcompensate
For you own inexperience
Don't underestimate
All my fear of getting caught

So many words, so many words
So many you can't believe
So many words, so many words
So many stuck at sea

On the second story of your suburban home
Mom's asleep just two doors down
Funny how when stuck at sea
Things are never the way they seem

Clouds take the shape of gloves
Reaching over the flames at dusk
Missing clips in your consciousness
Just act as if I don't exist

You overcompensate
For you own inexperience
Don't underestimate
All my fear of getting caught

So many words, so many words
So many you can't believe
So many words, so many words
So many stuck at sea

Felt the repetition
Of my way
The lack of apprehension
That once saved

So many words, so many words
So many you can't believe
So many words, so many words
So many you can't believe
This will end eventually

Keep burning my fingers
In attempt to rekindle the flame
The matches so flimsy
And the wind just denies her name

And so I pull out the garments
That were pressed between us
On that dreamless evening
You refer to in disgust

So many words, so many words
So many you can't believe
So many words, so many words
So many stuck at sea

So many words, so many words
So many you can't believe
So many words, so many words
So many stuck at sea

So many words, so many words
So many you can't believe
So many words, so many words
So many stuck at sea


12.Far More

Lyricist:Adam Boyd, Jarrod Gorbel, Jonathan Wiley

Is this a sign of our demise?
Or is it just the opposite?
I love you and I miss you
What else is there to say?

Takes a hell of a lot more to complete this
Far more, far more to recreate
Far more, far more, far more, far more
Far more, far more than we can take

When you decide how much time
Do you let, do you let, do you let
Do you let pass before?

These false starts, these small meals
They're for my, for my starving hands
Just treading, just treading in shallow water
Avoiding the drop, the drop in the ocean floor

Far more, far more, far more, far more
Far more, far more than we possess
How much, how much, how much
How much longer, girl?
How much longer do we need to wait?

For a moment when the blare of the TV subsides
And the song fills the air, playing every night
The change in the key feels like a change in the season

I pretend almost every, every other night
That this body in it' entirety
Belongs to me, every breath, it comes and goes
It comes and goes all night

Well, you can't dictate the way
The way I'm gonna feel no matter what
No matter what I'm forced to see
I'll be the one free of jealousy

Well, you can't dictate the way
The way I'm gonna feel no matter what
No matter what I'm forced to see
I'll be the one free of jealousy

Far more, far more, far more, far more
Far more, far more than we can take
So well, so well, so well rehearsed
I coordinated this kind of mess

I'll do it like, do it like, do it like, do it like
Do it like, do it like, do it like, do it like
Do it like we used to, like we used to do

I love you and I miss you
What else is there to say?


13.Revealing Too Much

Lyricist:Jarrod Gorbel, Aaron Kamstra

Accentuated by the mobile dungeon of fluorescence
As I fall out of love, this wasn't supposed to happen
Not according to you

Please don't allow your voice to fade
Don't fall so weak to fault or blame
To give yourself reason for an end

Please don't allow your voice to fade
Don't fall so weak to fault or blame
To give yourself reason for an end

We'd have our own subway car in the middle of the night
I'd work the same job and play the same bars on every weekend
As the graffiti scrolls by

Please don't allow your voice to fade
Don't fall so weak to fault or blame
To give yourself reason for an end

Please don't allow your voice to fade
Don't fall so weak to fault or blame
To give yourself reason for an end

And at the end of your low, you pin my shoulders against the
mattress
Arching your frame with your stomach pushed outward
Your head titling back with your mouth partially open
The sounds slur and elevate slowly in volume

When you wake up with your family gathered around
Remember that our love was true
And I will not allow you to destroy yourself, I'll know

And I hope that I'm not revealing too
I hope that I'm not revealing too
I hope that I'm not revealing too
I hope that I'm not revealing too much, not too much

We'd have our own subway car in the middle of the night
I'd work the same job and play the same bars on every weekend
As the graffiti scrolls by


14.Petals

Lyricist:Jarrod Gorbel, Aaron Kamstra

Petals broke from tips of roses
Hidden underneath my arm
All the framed, different poses of places
I'll soon forget that I'll soon forget

Tell me again that part
How you didn't feel a thing that part?
How you never actually really ever did
And lift yourself from my grip but don't fall asleep

Nothin' you say can or will ever penetrate
The walls that I, that I-I-I create
When you spew that
Barrage of insulting words

And no, that ain't no way isn't all
That ain't no way isn't all
Baby isn't all
And nothing you, you say can or will penetrate
These walls that I, that I create
That I create

Five stitches seal the crease
From the fit fueled by your aching
You're so temperamental darlin'
With your little disease, oh how sweet

Petals broke from tips of roses
Hidden underneath my arm
All the framed, different poses of places
I'll soon forget that I'll soon forget

And no, that ain't no way isn't all
That ain't no way isn't all
Baby it isn't all
And nothing you, you say can or will penetrate
These walls that I create
Oh that I create

I'm happy for you baby, but I don't wanna know


15.Accident Prone

Lyricist:Jarrod Gorbel

Never been so eager, not to this extent
Can't imagine leaving, I'm comfortably obsessed
It seems misleading, such a far outstretch
But I mean every word I've said

When you slow down all the details spill out
It's no accident how you fell right into my arms
It's no accident how you fell right into my arms

I have been preparing, preparing for this day
Don't plan on sleeping, just eagerly await
It seems misleading such a far outstretch
But I mean every word I've said

When you slow down all the details spill out
It's no accident how you fell right into my arms
It's no accident how you fell right into my arms

Leave with me, leave with me
Leave with me, leave with me
Leave with me now forever again
Leave with me, leave with me
Leave with me, leave with me
Leave with me now, forever again, again

Something tells me I am losing self-control
Something tells me I am losing self-control
But you're the only one who, one who needs to know

Oh, leave with me, leave with me
Leave with me, leave with me
Leave with me now forever again
Leave with me, leave with me
Leave with me, leave with me
Leave with me now forever again


16.Bridge and Tunnel

Lyricist:Jarrod Gorbel, Aaron Kamstra

If, if you want
If you want to be the one that he's thinking of
You, you just need, you just need to understand
Ah, just turn around, just turn around

You are the only thing
The only thing that he has left
The only thing at all
The only thing at all

In later hours when the packed bars start spitting cowards
They're picking scars cell phones clenched along, along the
sidewalk
They usually stay out of our way the bridge and tunnel
Just seems to escape near our home, near our home

If, if you want
If you want to be the one that he's thinking of
You, you just need, you just need to understand
Ah, just turn around, just turn around

'Cuz you are the only thing
The only thing that he has left
The only thing at all
The only thing at all

In later hours when the packed bars start spitting cowards
They're picking scars cell phones clenched along, along the
sidewalk
They usually stay out of our way the bridge and tunnel
Just seems to escape near our home, near our home

You go out there is no one else around
Been waiting for countless hours
Oh, you never, you never measure up
'C-c-c-cuz, baby, it will all soon come to an end
'C-c-c-cuz, baby, it will all soon come to an end

In later hours when the packed bars start spitting cowards
They're picking scars cell phones clenched along, along the
sidewalk
They usually stay out of our way the bridge and tunnel
Just seems to escape near our home, near our home

'Cuz you are the only thing
The only thing that he has left
The only thing at all


17.Untouched And Intact

Lyricist:Jarrod Gorbel

Maybe it's time to hold on to one side, one decision
Let go off the hand that holds me high above that great divide
And beauty is the ease required for you to understand
That single frame of animation

I think you know, I think you know
I realize when you wake up that sometimes
I appear unfamiliar but these prints can't lie
I realize when you wake up that sometimes
I appear unfamiliar but these prints can't lie
And these prints can't lie

Possessing all the features I've predetermined to objectify
Oh, effortless and rubenesque yet so perfectly aligned
And beauty is the ease required for you to understand
That single frame of animation

I think you know, I think you know
I realize when you wake up that sometimes
I appear unfamiliar but these prints can't lie
I realize when you wake up that sometimes
I appear unfamiliar but these prints can't lie

Nine or ten songs, I had let pass before
I had broke that first thought progression
There we were in the same restaurant
Grazing legs underneath the table

Sayin' I will always, always, I will watch over you
I will always, always, I will watch over you
Over you, over you

I realize when you wake up that sometimes
I appear unfamiliar but these prints can't lie
I realize when you wake up that sometimes
I appear unfamiliar but these prints can't lie

I want you back, this means untouched and intact
I want you back, this means untouched and intact
I want you back, this means untouched and intact
I want you back, this means untouched and intact


18.Cut Short

Lyricist:Jarrod Gorbel

When I said you looked good baby
I was thinking possibly or maybe
We could head back to your crib
Not where I live you see

My situations quite sad
I'm still living with my mom and my dad
But really I'm going places
Even though I'm seeing three of your faces
Please, God, let's not resort to
Mini-mall parking spaces

Encounters with police
With my hands in the air
Encounters with police
Why ask if you don't care

I just had no idea that this would be lasting
For just one single moment
I just have to say, you look so goddamn good
I give you crazy mad props because I know I should

And, I came a bit intoxicated, but really, really, really
I just graduated and from where my hands are situated
Obviously, I'm growing more and more and more
Infatuated just wait, please wait

Encounters with police
With my hands in the air
Encounters with police
Why ask if you don't care

I just had no idea that this would be lasting
For just one single moment
We could be like onions and peppers
In a sleeping bag fajitas

We could be anything you want
The way you're busting out of that wife-beater
And I know it's a bit uncomfortable here
In this two door seater but you're just the right size
And I will always feed you and feed you and feed you

Encounters with police
With my hands in the air
Encounters with police
Why ask if you don't care

When I said you looked good baby
I was thinking possibly
When I said you looked good baby
I was thinking possibly, maybe or maybe

I just had no idea that this would be lasting
For just one single moment

If you were driving next to me say, on the lie
My eyes would become so engaged
I'd float unconsciously into the HOV
Kill myself, the guy in front of me
His inflatable passengers of one, two, or three


19.Frame By Frame

Lyricist:Jarrod Gorbel, Aaron Kamstra

Days bunch up in weeks, collaborate in months against me
The sheets are stained with evidence
That our remains are now, drifting away

I share with complete strangers my most personal of pleasures
I scribble tidbits of useless mind info trash, treasure
Spend hours, at my leisure, like sharpened precise tweezers

Shifting through in the frame by frame
I walk the same path, I'll say the same lines
I do this every time, do this every time

Shifting through in the frame by frame
I walk the same path, I'll say the same lines
I do this, I do this

Dodging armpit stench aromatic
Wrapped up in my own self-induced stress panic
I think I am the only one in this shifting through

Shifting through in the frame by frame
I walk the same path, I'll say the same lines
I do this every time, do this every time

Shifting through in the frame by frame
I walk the same path, I'll say the same lines
I do this, I do this

They'll collaborate in months against me
They'll collaborate in months against me

Shifting through in the frame by frame
I walk the same path, I'll say the same lines
I do this every time, do this every time

Shifting through in the frame by frame
I walk the same path, I'll say the same lines
I do this, I do this

I walk the same path, I'll say the same lines
I do this every time, do this every time

I walk the same path, I'll say the same lines
I do this, I do this


20.Points Underneath

Lyricist:Jarrod Gorbel, Aaron Kamstra

What started as a crush became an obsession
It was the classic path
You've taken the weekend home, you're believing
That things are somehow getting done
But you're wrong, you're wrong, you're wrong, oh no

Now you don't ever leave me all alone, not this evening
I am cold and shivering without you near
I have begged and I have borrowed
From my friends, who once admired
Now they all have lost respect for me

Feed me the words to explain this urge
With pressure and squeeze, from points underneath
The streams in your skin are ready
'Cause I can and I will, just as long as you instill this fear
in my heart
I just hope that you aren't alone, I just hope that you aren't
alone

'Did I do something wrong?'
Her eyes start to question
Yes, you did something wrong
You just failed to mention

Feed me the words to explain this urge
With pressure and squeeze, from points underneath
The streams in your skin are ready
'Cause I can and I will, just as long as you instill this fear
in my heart
I just hope that you aren't alone, I just hope that you aren't
alone

And hopefully you will see
That the plans and the dreams
That we shared under this haze
They all wilt away

Hopefully you will see
That the plans and the dreams
That we shared under this haze

You were wrong
I just hope that you aren't alone


21.Everything I Once Had

Lyricist:Jarrod Gorbel, Aaron Kamstra

One, two, three

Everything I, you were, everything I once had
The bar on 1st Avenue, we went there solely for you
So you can flirt with my best friend
Kiss a girl, tell me why you're laughing

I won't hold on, I can't hold on to this

There's a hole in the trust that we
Mapped out in my bed for six long months
There's a hole in the trust that we
Mapped out in my bed for six long months, for six long months

Well I won't hold on to this

February, Valentines Day
Did my best to avoid the red cliches
So you dumped me on the subway
On my way to work at nine in the morning

Everybody else is holding bouquets
Now I'm holding my face in the basement
Scratching away for any trace of affection you will leave
Falling victim to the publics prey

Well I won't hold on, no, I can't hold on
I won't hold on to this

Saw a silhouette the perfection the outline of my dreams
The blur that made everything I had and put it all to shame

I just want to hold on to this

Anyone is suitable for you, for you I guess tonight
Anyone is suitable for you I, for you I guess tonight
You are face silhouette, you're my beautiful
You are face silhouette, you're my beautiful
Blue eyed, you're blue and white
You're blue and, blue and white


22.Disengage

Lyricist:Jarrod Gorbel, Aaron Kamstra

So you regret the last five years of your life with me
Don't you think that I feel the same way too?
Don't you think that I feel the same way too?

Disengage your eyes at least one moment in the time
And soon you will know
Trace the lines on my face until you are underneath
Well it all starts real slow

Walking sleepless through the streets
I don't understand a thing you mean
This relationship is based
On what trails across the CD case
And it will all soon come to an end

But if you don't pick up the phone, you will regret it
Said it before but this time I mean it

'Cause you, you keep telling me that you regret
All the things that we've done
I've tortured you, that I'm willing to admit
Guilt-ridden for those years
Trying to forget from now on, from now on

I met her at a show, her dress was stained
And her eyes had a glow
There were no lines to trace on that face
But I will make my way underneath
I'll just start real slow

Walking sleepless through the streets
I don't understand a thing you mean
Well this relationship is based
On what trails across the CD case
And it will all soon come to an end

But if you don't pick up the phone, you will regret it
Said it before and this time I mean it

'Cause you, you keep telling me that you regret
All the things that we've done
I've tortured you, that I'm willing to admit
Guilt-ridden for those years
Trying to forget, from now on, from now on
From now on, from now on

Said it before and this time I mean it
'Cause if you don't pick up the phone, you will regret it
I wanna die, I wanna die, well


23.Snow Day

Lyricist:Jarrod Gorbel, Aaron Kamstra

The window fogs from my breath
My face pressed up close, up close against
Catching the snowfall under a beam of streetlight
And praying for accumulation all through the night

These confrontations puncture the skin
Reveal evidence that you are easily broken, you're so easily
broken
Exposed and relentlessly bleeding from the cracks
At that age when everything is seemingly life or death

Please let the snow swallow the streets whole
Keep the bus from coming
Let us stay at home so we can avoid the daily drudgery
The cruelty fueled from laughter that will echo in our sleep

Seasons, weakening the hold the blades dulled
From the front that hints the snow warming engine slowly turns
Stuttering awoken from the sounds of shovels scraping concrete
At that age when everything is seemingly life or death

Adrenaline fuels my
Fist grinds my teeth through sleep


24.Cats In Heat

Lyricist:Jarrod Gorbel

Pulled from the liquor cabinet
Choose your mood and then start to wreak havoc
With your exaggerated sadness
This is when I start to lose

Interrupted by the flickering candles
The darkness that softened the angles
Though I am the reason
I am the reason

That I'm filling in the empty spaces
Where you left your mark
Take two steps back from all of this
Remember what you started with
It was nothing at all

Back in Queens, where the stifling heat
Overpowers the air-conditioning
You can keep on crawling away
But you're never gonna escape
No, no, not today

I'm filling in the empty spaces
Where you left your mark
I'm filling in the empty spaces
Where you left your mark

In the soothing peace
Of car alarms and cats in heat
I can hear you breathe
I can hear you breathe
I can hear you breathe

Ba, ba, da, da, da
Ba, ba, da, da, da
Ba, ba, da, da, da
Ba, ba, da, da, da

Alright, alright

Keep on telling me that time is no enemy
A worthless struggle to step back
Keep on telling me that time is no enemy
A worthless struggle to step back and reconceive


25.Never Said

Lyricist:Jarrod Gorbel

It's silent but the voices in my head
Have never been this clear
The answer to everything
Reflects off your breath
And all of these, and all these fears

I've become the master of my own
Devised this plan, I can't disown
Self torturous

4:07 AM
My remote control drops to the floor
I feel myself with my hands
I am my own self
Satisfying, satisfying

I've become the master of my own
Devised this plan, I can't disown
Self torturous

I've become the master
Devised this plan, I can't disown
Self torturous

And there's a pile of used tissues
Lying on the side of my bed
Each one that will never be said
Each one that will never be said

Well, I've become the master of my own
Devised this plan, I can't disown
Self torturous

I've become the master of my own
Devised this plan, I can't disown
Self torturous


26.Dilute

Lyricist:Jarrod Gorbel

The island's small and desolate
The highway stretch towards nothingness
Weeds infest our front lawn
The picket fence impales the sun
That silhouettes on our houses
Dressed up in luminesce

And the softest part of your flesh
Helps my body ingest sleep
In the dead of the summer

I will pretend that you won't be gone
Distance dilutes it rewrites and rewrites
And I will pretend that you won't be gone
Distance dilutes it rewrites this song

The island's small and desolate
The highway stretch towards nothingness
The weeds infest our front lawn
The picket fence impales the sun
That silhouettes on our houses
Dressed up in luminesce

And the softest part of your flesh
Helps my body ingest sleep
In the dead of the summer

I will pretend that you won't be gone
Distance dilutes it rewrites and rewrites
And I will pretend that you won't be gone
Distance dilutes and rewrites this song

But I keep asking you to tell me what is wrong
And you, you just tell me that it's nothing at all
But in your helplessness I can see, you know I can see

The softest part of your flesh
Helps my body ingest sleep
In the dead of the summer

I will pretend that you won't be gone
That distance dilutes it rewrites and rewrites
And I will pretend that you won't be gone
Distance dilutes it rewrites and rewrites
And I will pretend that you won't be gone


27.7 Blocks

Lyricist:Jarrod Gorbel

It was only 7 blocks walking to the subway
You can't miss the trucks out near the elevator
So you get a chance to breathe
But in the dead of winter, you just have to freeze

But I never go out once I get home
Just seems pointless to venture out alone
If I can just lure you in here with me
Just say my name, baby, it's up and coming

I'm not being cheap
I'm just being poor
So call yourself a car
And cross the boulevard

Why don't you start thinking about
Coming home with me, coming home with
Why don't you start thinking about
Coming home with, coming home with
Coming home with me

But the radiator's cold, the window's leaking winter
And we're sleeping in our clothes
Creaking wooden floor, trip to the bathroom
Louder than the sex before

The bed slowly travels down on me
Incline of my room
The bed slowly travels down on me
Incline of the room

Why don't you start thinking about
Coming home with me, you coming home with
Why don't you start thinking about
Coming home with, coming home with
Coming home with me

Portions of the evening
I'm missing, it's no mystery
I found receipts in a
The pieces that trace back
To our faithful, yeah, our meeting

It's not easy finding someone else
When you're still, you're still bleeding
You're still bleeding
I found someone else, I found someone else

She's coming home with
She's coming home with
She's coming home with me

You told me the only reason you left
This is not my fault
You told me the only reason you left
This is not my fault

This is not my fault for never moving down
To New Orleans with you
This is not my fault for never moving down
To New Orleans with you, with you


28.Reassemble

Lyricist:Jarrod Gorbel

I knew something was wrong
Just in the way you said 'I'm so sorry'
The story read and I pleaded
For you to continue

With you in my presence
The pictures reassemble themselves
Return to the cracked frame
On top the television
Return to the cracked frame
On top the television

I'm sorry but I can't see past
What other people are thinking
I'm sorry but I can't see past
What other people are thinking
What other people are thinking
Other people are thinking

Your voice cracked
Almost begged for forgiveness
Before you
Even told me, told me

With you in my presence
The pictures reassemble themselves
Return to the cracked frame
On top the television
Return to the cracked frame
On top the television

I'm sorry but I can't see past
What other people are thinking
I'm sorry but I can't see past
What other people are thinking
What other people are thinking
Other people are thinking

With you in my presence
The pictures reassemble themselves
Return to the cracked frame
On top the television
Return to the cracked frame
On top the television

Those that are tore to shreds
In the moment you were in two dimensions
Those that are tore to shreds
In the moment you were in two dimensions
Just two dimensions

I'm filling in the empty spaces
Where you left your mark
You left your mark


29.Soft, Pale, And Pure

Lyricist:Jarrod Gorbel

Evening begins with a page to invite you in
Play some pool or watch her smoking cigarette after cigarette
And I sit from afar drinking water down here
Familiar smells help recollect the years, recollect the years

'Cause I've been thinking of this place forever, I know
It's all that I, I've come to know
As I slowly, I lose control, slowly I lose

Soft, pale, and pure and himself pink
In a skin of pink that would blossom in a rain

Perfection stands alone
Waiting for the buzz
Pure and pale and innocent
Not yet wearing the scars

And your face consumes all the attention
Your shape is collecting gazes
Bent over the pool table, I watch as you

Drink to think that I've accomplished something, what a
Drink to think that I've accomplished something

But I've been thinking of this place forever, I know
It's all that I, I've come to know
As I slowly, I lose control
Slowly, I lose

Soft, pale, and pure and himself pink
In a skin of pink that would blossom in a rain

Walking the path I thought you might have that night
For what seemed like forever
Took off all your clothes, the clothes that I chose
Drank myself into this situation

Drink to think that I've accomplished something, what a
Drink to think that I've accomplished something, what a
(What a joke)
Drink to think that I've accomplished something, what a
(My life, has become, a joke)

Drink to think that I've accomplished something, what a
(My life, has become, a joke)
Drink to think that I've accomplished something, what a
(My life, has become, a joke)
Drink to think that I've accomplished something, what a joke
(My life, has become)


30.Finally Understand

Lyricist:Jarrod Gorbel

Creeping up on the hours
That will interfere with my day tomorrow
I don't think I'll ever leave my bed

It's not as if the list compiled
Will be touched upon no work, no trial
I'm starting to feel all the days pass

When the men return
In a binge of self medication
Ghost of me drenches you with love
And that twist in my chemistry
Unwinds and comes undone

And return to that useless soul
That useless soul of silence

I finally understand
Why, why you left seemed so obvious
I finally understand
Why, why you left seemed so obvious

When I kiss you goodnight
It doesn't matter just how quiet
I'll read it all in the glaze of your eyes

You're not happy, haven't been
For weeks, months on end
And still you spend every waking moment with me

All the years that were pleasurable
Are now holding you prisoner
And everyday you wait for them to return

And words start scrambling
A place where man and oxygen
As I fail to say what you
What you, what you need to hear
Well, you deserve, you deserve someone better

I finally understand
Why, why you left seemed so obvious
I finally understand
Why, why you left seemed so obvious
Why you left seemed so

Guess it's hard to see, I guess it's hard to believe
That there was once so much room to breathe
I've been leaning on you for over three years
You're down on one leg slipping in a river of tears

I finally understand
Why, why you left seemed so obvious
Finally understand
Why, why you left seemed so

I finally understand
How could I have been so blind
I finally understand
How could I have been so blind

Yes, you deserve, you deserve someone better


31.Reason To Celebrate

In the latter half of December
Pressure builds from all reflection on the prior year
On this prior year, yes it was such a great year

Sidewalks fill till congestion
Starts to spill
Out onto the steam rising off of Lexington

A broken promise is on display for a disconnected family
To reestablish a blood relation
Through wine and drunken conversations
Without this would there be?
Oh, anything at all

My brothers age exceeds mine by several years
But when he's here the years disintegrate
Watch them disappear
Just watch them rolling all the fear

'Cause our luck, mistakes and misfortunes
Without them would there be
A place for these children to lead?
A way out of war torn country
Will they see?

Anything at all, oh, anything at all
Parents they will brace this fall
Soon enough receive the call
Above the crying, everything's gone wrong

You see everything's gone wrong
You see everything's gone wrong
Just call your brother, give him love
The broken pieces we will sew

Broken promise on display, disconnected family
If not this would there be?
Would there be reason to celebrate?
Would there be reason, reason at all?

And on this holiday I beg and pray
For you to show me a conversation
Holding hands underneath all the flashing decorations
Put everything aside for now, it's just you I love tonight
If not for each other, then for my parents sake

On this holiday I beg and pray
For you to show me a conversation
Holding hands underneath all the flashing decorations
And put everything aside for now, it's just you I love tonight
If not for each other, then for my parents sake


32.Properly Balanced

Small bolts of blood shoot across
The circumference, of his, of his eyes
The smells of fish, piss, puke and garbage
Sidewalk cooking, underneath the sunrise

It's getting old now
It's getting old now
It's getting old

Don't call me
When you're moods are properly balanced
'Cause I was there now
For the worst part of it

Conjured confidence walks the sidewalk
Holding his breath as the garbage truck passes by
His breath now breathes unfullfilment
Which for a moment he just pushes aside

It's getting old now
It's getting old now
It's getting old

Instincts read the buckling seams
And stitches over the wealth of
The healthy and the uninterested

Don't call me when you're moods
Are properly balanced
'Cause I was there now
For the worst part of this

Don't call me when you're moods
Are properly balanced
'Cause I was there now
For the worst part of this

I twitch and cling to these, these images
That I foreseen I jump at any noise
That the night, the night will brings

I don't wanna hear, I don't wanna hear
I don't wanna hear it anymore
I don't wanna hear, I don't wanna hear
I don't wanna hear it anymore

Conjured confidence walks the sidewalk
Holding its breath as it all passes by
You know, as it all passes by

I don't wanna hear, I don't wanna hear
I don't wanna hear it anymore
I don't wanna hear, I don't wanna hear
I don't wanna hear it anymore